Long, long time and no posts...
My life have being a lot of things lately.... from the happier to the most sad ones...

I got married 3 yrs ago...
got a new job....
Got pregnant and miscarried...
And lost most interest in pixel art/dolls...

but, is again that time of the year, when everything is brighter and happier!
Let's stay under the Christmas tree, watching the christmas lights....

Have a great time everyone!

Hi!!!
i know i havent wrote anything in here in a loooong time.. but thats another story ^-^
I´m lettin you know (to the few people still remember btw..) that i´m computerless at home..
i´m typing this at work.. today is saturday... and my boss didnt come to work.. mwuahahahaha
is nice being browsing throught a high-speed DSL cable connection, but i still need my compy at home..
i trully miss making anything arsty at home.. i feel depressed for just being doing stuff for work, i need to make somenthing nice, like making pixels, art, illustration, making a new layout.. whatever..
btw... i´m commissioned for making our work web page, but i feel so un-inspired... i miss my computer and all the stuff i used to have stored there... awww... i trully promise to make lots of things whenever i get my computer back! I PROMISE!!

Hi!
Well... i'm not dead, i have being sick past week, i guess i was fine... but yesterday when i got out of work (at 4:15 PM) started raining and i got all wet.. the rain was sooo cold... and i'm not feeling really fine either.. last week i needed 6 painful injections due having bronchitis... i'm having a bit of difficult to breathe... i hate the noise my chest does when trying to breathe...
Anyways... i apologize because seems i got myself the 4,444 kiriban *blush* so... when i get well or got more free time (stupid work) i should think of another kiriban..
I'm actually wondering if i should give a try or not to this contest held at out local Anime Con--> http://www.metrocomtampico.com/torneos.html
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DRAWING CONTEST: 2 CATEGORIES B/W & COLOR
- 2 Categories: B/W & Color
- Free Subject.
- Works can be submitted on March 25th.
- Due date is March 26th at 18:00 hrs.
- Awards will be given on March 26th at 20:00 hrs.
- Points into judging: Originality, Art (Pop-art, expresionism, etc.) drawing technique
(oil painting, watercolor, pencils, chalk, ink, etc.) and difficulty degree.
- The format of the work must be 17x11 in. as maximum.

Requirements: The work must be original art, completelly done by the competitor, must include work title (if it has any).
The participant can enter 2 works, one for each category.
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Last year i wanted so badly to enter the Cosplay contest... but i dont have the time to finish my Tomoeda Winter school uniform my mother made for me... so, this year i'm seriously thinkin of entering the Drawing Contest indeed...
But... i havent done any traditional art in such a long time... so i'm not sure if i should give it a try or not...
Last year the guy that was 2nd place in Color category was a gorgeous CG Drawing... it was stunning.. but the judges discredited and he didnt won First place because it was Computer Drawing XD *idiots* so.. i'm afraid if i enter some Pixel Art or a CG/Vector i'm not going to win anything...
So... should i give it a try with Traditional Art?? or just try out something with the Computer? CG?? Vector?? Pixel-Art?? I know i'm more fond with Pixel Art btw... but i dont want to be discredited either due being make in Computer..
So... if you suggest try out Traditional Art... any ideas for a subject??
I'm more open to somenthing Anime/Manga related...
Any inputs/ideas on this??
Please, help... i need to get an idea for next Friday and start working next weekend...
Thankies in advance..

See ya!
~Veronica

OMG!! I trully CAN'T believe i'm so sick!!! >____<
I started supposedly with my normal "allergies" past Friday.... you get the point.. the basic symptoms: runny nose, watery eyes, lots of sneeze and all..
I trully believed it was normal, since in the weather forecast announced last Saturday some bad weather...
But yesterday... i waked up not feeling that bad.. so.. i trully believed it was over... but yesterday by night, i started with stuffed nose... i trully hate that..
Not being able to breaht by your nose, having the stupid stuffed nose and plus... flu-like symptoms, headache, nose symptoms, runny nose, sneezes, watery eyes, nasal congestion...
So, yesterday my group from 7th grade have our party.... i started to feel bad about my allergies.. it sucks...
But today that my mother wake me up.. i'm gettin worse.... and plus, i feel somenthing weird and my throat was a bit scratchy... so.. if i'm lucky enough i'm gettin a cold or somenthing worse....geez...
A lot of things have being bothering me... my mom between some of them...
I dont understand why if she's working (remember i'm still unemployed..) she dont gave me any money for food or even for the phone bill...
I found it unfair since she's working and earn some money, besides, i'm still unemployed and i'm making some miracles to get the phone bill paid...
And plus... a few minutes ago. she was yelling out loud to me.. since i didnt hear when the plumber was back...
Yup... i'm sick and she made an apointment with the plumber for working pretty early in the morning on Sunday (yeah i know i'm sounding selfish..)
and.. since she noticed the plumber's bag in our backyard.. she assumes that the plumber was outside and i didn't hear him...
For God's sake mom!!! I'm not feeling good!!! I'm SICK!!! let me get some rest!!! I'm sleepy and have some little fever... XD

I feel so dumb but i'm almost clueless about Gaia online
I got an account on January 2004 and barely havent played too much..
but i'm very curious... today that i logged in i got this message:

Hello chokora,
Look around for something special! (Event # c50706bcc2107484419)

And of course i'm sooo clueless
Rare Events are supposed to be random events that will happen when you least expect it. Giftboxes and Trunks will appear and you’ll find all kinds of cool rare items inside. Also, be wary of glowing links that will give you instant bonus gold when you click on them! .. at least that's the website description of if...
anyone have any idea of what i must be looking for??

Hi!
i Haven't being posting too much at my journal.. sorry :(
I know i must be near to get depressed again.. so i started to trying to get my life back in track again...
Past Wednesday (Nov. 3th) i got back to Kick-boxing training again... i trully missed that...
So.. past Friday... we were fighting (we always do some sparring only on Friday's) i was training and fighting to a girl that most of my friends (Erika, Liz & Norma) absolutelly hate.. the girl is such a jerk.. and once she talked behinf our backs, that we were too "old" for being in there.. *grrrrr* such ann idiot..
But past Friday this "granny" (i'm talking about myself) gave her a big punch right in her face!! *mwuahahahahaha* i'm evil.. but seriously this girls need someone who gave her some serious lesson..
But that's not everything!!! haha!! She tried to kick me!! She tried to gave me a 'round~kick" that's a kick at the waist... i stepped back.. and didn't wait for her to return to her fighting stance.. so i kicked her when she still had a leg in the air... and.. she fell to the ground!!
Of course, everyone turned their heads.... and she was laying in the floor.. that was hilarious...
I'm sure i didn't hurt her that much.. but i'm sure i hurted her pride/self-steem too much!! :P
Anyways... i'm happy that no matter that i skipped a whole month and i'm not in the best conditions, i'm not doing it that bad ;)
Oh well... now talking about the Job part... (that's the one that make me feel sad).. yup.. i went to 2 job-interviews.. and got any calls so far.. but the thing that pissed me off the most, was reading a Job-ad at the local newspaper, from the last company i went to the job interview!!! I was like WTF?? Stupid people!! i went to that job interview past month (October 29th, i believe..) and they told me they were going to call me back, no matter if i got the job or not... then i waited for that phone call last week.. but this past Sunday, i saw the job ad at the newspaper.. and of course got mad...
Stupid people!! Their office is soooooo far away form the place i live!!!
If you get a taxi... they cost like 10 dollars or more the ride!!!
And i didn't get any phone call... and of course, they're still seeking for people...
But anyways.. on a happier note... i have to go and take my shower... i'm going to eat some tasty sushi today!!!
Of course i'm going to try to take some pics of the sushi!!
I hope next Thursday going to Mc Donalds since the Happy Meal treat in Mexico are cute THE DOG Mini 2" plushies!!
So far the breeds i got are: Pug and Beagle
I got the beagle twice... but i'm going to gave this one to my friend Erika!!
And the girl @ the Mac Donalds told us this week they're releasing the: Husky, Cocker Spaniel and Poodle!

W00ts! I'm done with my latest dolling projects! :) *dances around*
Both are submitions to Eden Enchanted Halloween Ball 2004.
This one is supposed to be The Queen of Hearts this time in a Gothic/Lolita themed ;)


Base by: Pinkies

And this one, is a more complex theme ;) but i love how we decided to stick into the Mexican celebration of Day of the Dead instead of making something Halloween related:


Base by: Aquaspirits (thanxs Lenny!)

And here's is the collab as i submitted it to the Halloween Ball:



The altar contains everything that is needed: Pan de Muerto (Death's bread), fruit, beer (Tecate), sugary skulls :P , votive candles, Zempoaxuchitl flowers (the orange flowers that seems to be carnations), paper tablecloths, fruits, etc...
If you're curious about Day of the Dead celebrations, here's some helpful links to explain you in a better way tham my poor english translation :P
- http://www.inside-mexico.com/featuredead.htm
- http://www.public.iastate.edu/~rjsalvad/scmfaq/muertos.html
- http://www.pastrywiz.com/season/halloween11.htm

Enjoy!

OMG! Only 4 years and now my TV is just plain dead?? XD
I'm going to miss you my honey ;_____________;

Anyways.. i need to get a job and buy a new TV A.S.A.P!! ^-^
Yup.. i'm as vicious with the TV like Homer or Bart Simpson...
Anyways.... yesterday i went to a job interview... the taxi was about US$6.00.. but the guy deserve that!!! The location was really far away.. and we went all the ride in like about 30 minutes..
I stayed in the lounge.. waiting for another 15~20 minutes...and the job interview lasted something like... just 10 minutes! :P (duh)
They told me they were making meetings for a bunch of candidates.. thy're 2 or 3 job positions available.. so let's see what's happen..
And... tomorrow i have another job interview.... 10:00 AM.. but i guess if i want to be just in time.. i have to leave my home like at 8:50 or 9:00 AM.. trust me... that job is more far away than the one i went yesterday...
And.. i'm afraid the taxi guy is going for somenthing like $12 bucks (more or less..) who knows??
I still need to make a Long Distance phone call for asking waht the heck happened to my College degree diploma and the infamous certificate... they have being making me call like every month.. since July... jesus.. this people get into my nerves..

OH GOD!
What's wrong with me these days??
I can't believe all the bad luck i have being experinecing lately..
Today i wake up and have somenthing weird with my left eye.. maybe an eye infection??

Viral and bacterial conjunctivitis ("pink eye") - This is usually accompanied by a cold. It often starts with just redness without discharge and then yellow eye discharge appears, especially noted when the child wakes from sleep. When the yellow discharge appears, this usually responds to antibiotic eye drops. An ear infection may accompany this in about 40% of cases.

Allergic conjunctivitis - These children usually have a history of allergies and it may be triggerred by a contact to which the child is allergic (like a cat). The eye is itchy, watery and sneezing and clear runny nose may be present. Treatment with over-the-counter allergy eye drops and oral antihistamines may be helpful. If symptoms are persistent or severe, prescription allergy eye drops may be helpful.

Foreign body or chemical in the eye- A foreign body lodged in the eye or under the eyelids will cause irritation, redness and pain in the eye. It may sometimes be dislodged at home by gently flushing the eye with water. Chemicals may also be flushed. Consult your local poison control if chemicals are suspected. If pain persists after flushing or if poison control recommends it, the child should be seen by a physician. A corneal abrasion, which is a scratch on the cornea also needs to be ruled out. These cause persistent pain of the eye and a sensation like something is scratching the eye every time they blink.


I suspect of Allergic Conjuctivitis since i have a story on allergies... but i'm curious.. what kind of thing triggered this reaction??
And everything went fine when i sleep last night... but when i waked up from my sleep... i just looked like Rocky Balboa.. with that eye.. :P
Anyways.... i'm such a pathetic and vicious people.... i'm in here rambling about my health.. sitting in front of the computer with black sunglasses.. (I feel like Stevie Wonder..) i know... i'm cruel for saying that... as i lowered the luminosity and contrast in my monitor and have all the curtains in my bedroom...
I dont know what to do... i know i have to take my shower and then call a doctor for making an appointment... I know..
In other news.... i just turned on my cell phone this morning and got a phone call from some job interview i made past March... they wanted me to call them back for an appointment.... Jesus.... i finally got a job offer.. and i look so awful right now...
I'm not going to look good wearing sunglasses in any job interview.. or looking fine without any make-up (mascara) since my eyes are all watery....
Why these things happens so often to me??
I must be cursed...

*Haha* I'M DONE!!
4 minutes ago i reached 24 continuos hours with NO SLEEP XD
I dont like insomnia that much.. but i simply couldn't get any sleep..
I'm soo tired right now... I'm going to sleep

PLEASE HELP ME!
This is a favor for a friend, she wants to know good places for buying a Blythe doll..
i know that people on my friends list have buyed Blythes or Pullips before.. so if anyone could be so kind to recommend me some web sites that sell Blythe dolls.. PLEASE!
My friend Nei wants to get the GROOVY GROOVE BLYTHE
She have a paypal account and lives in Spain if that helps ;)

Thanks in advance! :)

Anyone know where i can get a download from Princess Maker 2??
I know i download it from some fan site long time ago... but got my hard drive replaced and lost it...
I already did the infamous google search and found nothing of course..
As long i know PM2 is 'abandonware' so you can get it for free..
I know is a DOS based game.. not available for Windows game...
Anyone willing to help out?
Thankies..

I'm sorry gals if i sounded trully mad yesterday with that post :(
But i was actually feeling so bad.. really depressed...
I was pretty scared since just yesterday i started bleeding again... yeah i know... i just removed my pad past Saturday night.. and now.. again...
I was scared... i called my bf to his job for letting him know what was happening... i know he's busy and simply couldn't just 'leave' just like that... he tried to comfort me and told me that he was coming to see me A.S.A.P.
OK... i understood the things like this: I'm jobless, so.. that made me stay at home my whole time... but he have a real job and have to be responsible... Okie...
But when we hang up.. i started to have some panic attack... and start crying... i was having some cramps too... the pain wasn't that awful at all.. but i was feeling really down and sad... that sadness feeling scares me the most..
I dont know if someone here believes in witchcraft, but i just found out (since some friend suggested me going with this woman that reads the Tarot cards) that everything bad that happened me lately is due some "bad-vibes' that some 'ex' was giving to me...
I was like in shock.... i believed my 'ex' was a really good person, kind and cute and everything else...but no...
According with this lady... he's somewhat responsible of what happened with the miscarriage... she told me that this guy cheated on me... i know we have some 'difficult' relationship... we weren't your normal type of relationship at all.... but the lady told me that he cheated on me... since he not told me he was having another relationship with a girl younger than me... and he was like dating both of us..
Ok... we're not a couple anymore.. so i guess what he did to me in the past doesn't matter anymore... but what really made me angry about it... since we broke up.. (i know we dont broke up in a good way, annia, you know the whole story...) the Tarot lady told me that this guy has being 'telling his sad story' to like everyone! and of course he's playing like the 'victim' and i'm the bitch that broke up with him.. the one that is 'ungrateful' and the one that cheated...
OK... i was a bit reluctant to believe that.... but trust me... i know that he DID IT that way.. dont ask how.. but i just know...
So... this guy is the responsible of what happened (according to the lady) maybe he hates me so much that all bad energy affected me and happened the miscarriage... or... maybe some people close to him... was the one that caused what happened...
So... at least to me.. no matter is he was personally, or one of his 'friends or relatives' because of what he told them.... i was so angry and pissed off...
I send over my cell.. 5 or 6 threatening SMS to him... but my cell phone ran out of money...
I know that wasn't the smart thing to do... but i was so angry... i was feeling so impotent... and... i dont know why... but i started to feel 'confused'
I know i was angry because yesterday i was feeling really angry.. and blaming him of what happened, no matter what... but.. sadly, when the lady told me that he cheated on me in the past. and know that i know that he told his sad story to this female friend.. i started to feel bad about this...
I know i treated him like crap.. because that was the way i believed he could forget me sooner.. but.. seems like he already did that...
I'm somewhat sad, because i believed he loved me the most... but.. seems like he continued with his life and actually he 'replaced' me...
What the heck is happening to me?
I would love to blame the damn hormones for all this 'confussion'
My God... i'm a 30 yrs old female.. and i feel confussed.. like a teenager...
What i have to do? I'm not going to send him any more SMS, since i dont have money in my cell.. and.. since i just understand no matter if he's responsible or not of the miscarriage... no matter how much i would hate him... that's not going to bring me back my little child...
I'm making a whole mess out of my feelings...
I dont want to take the wrong decision... i'm not sure what are my feelings for both of them...
I'm stuck and depressed.. and sadly... i still want to die so badly...
Please somebody help me...
Please..
I'm bleeding some more..

Oh my.... i feel so awful.... i'm crying.... i'm crying like a little child...
I lost all my hope, seems like i have no happiness anymore...
I'm so sorry.. but i just want to die right now... I have so much pain and sorrow...
Please God help me to stop feeling this way..

Well, i finally got the strength to post this in here... i posted this at DMB, members only since contained personal stuff..
Okie, this happened past Thursday:

23-09-2004:

I can't stand this anymore..

Well... today i just took the decision to leave my actual job.... the few 3 people that read my tabulas would know what's all about... but let me explain you
I started to be working like a Computer Science teacher at some school... ok... the payment wasnt that great (3.50 bucks each class) but at least was decent and enough for the few hours i need to spend in there (only 7 hours a week)
Ok... just recently the head teacher, told us (teachers) that the school was having serious troubles due the limited number of students... and that they was requested to register all the teachers and pay the ISR and stuff.. ok... he told us that we have 2 options: or being registered or being paying ourselves the ISR...
Well, today they gave us the calculations of how much we were going to earn if they registered us for they paying the ISR:

Salary Daily= $3.00 US dollars
Montly = $ 98.00 dollars
IMSS ( - ) $33.00 dollars
ISR ( - ) $ 14.00 dollars
My new Salary= $51.00 dollars

Thats it... i'm going to be earning 48.28% less than i was supposed to...
When i got my calculation, i was like in shock.. later they started to ask all the teachers that if we just decided what we're going to do...
I asked to be included in the list of the teachers that are going to quit... but first when the meeting haven't even ended.. i ran to the teachers bathroom because i was feeling i was almost to tears... and i did.. i cried in the restroom...
when i was in the meeting again and asked to be included in the list of the people that aren't going to be working anymore... my eyes burst to tears again and i started crying... i felt so awful... and i have being crying since..
This past month i have being experiencing too many things... this troubles at work and some personal issues..
I wait a whole year for getting a job and know this happen...
I feel pretty bad... too many bad experiences in a few weeks... i'm so overwhelmed.. i feel so frustrated... i'm pretty sure i'm going to be depressed again soon.. i feel so lost... in another time maybe i could seriously consider killing myself...
i just started to feel that i'm so tired of being living this way... i can't... i just can't handle this anymore...

In the meantime i tried to caldm down... i was really angry about everything they have done to me... visited some ex-class mates from 7th grade past Friday.. it was good to forgot about my troubles for a little..
BUT! (there's always a 'but') i just found out that the people at the school are actually expecting me to sing a resignation paper.. they're like nuts!! i agreed to be listed in the black list (the one with the people leaving the school) since they asked who was interested in some "Wind Up" that's somenthing very different to just quitting and have to sign a resignation paper...
I have to be stronger right now... so, i need to get dressed and got and have some arguing and of course some fight with them, since i'm not going to let them to trample my worker rights anymore...
I hate this people for sure..

I was so hungry... my mother went to buy us some Kentucky Fried Chicken... she told me before leaving that if i dont wanted she put some mexican food (tamales) in the oven for me.. if i was that hungry i could eat the tamales before she came with the chicken...
I refused.. i said: NO, I CAN WAIT UNTIL YOU CAME WITH THE FOOD..
Big Lie...
i was so hungry and took a tamal and put in the oven for heating it and of course eating the thing....
When the tamal was hot.. i was ready for putting it in a dish an eating it... but I SWEAR! that i hear the front door and my mothers voice, like she was talking with my dog...
I leave the tamal in the kitchen and went to the living room for looking at her and see what she bring home...
But... the living room was empty... i searched in the dining room, the bathroom, the kitchen, outside... everywhere.. and.. nothing... my mother wasn't at home.. yet....
Scary...
the old people that lived here, have told us that they see ghosts in here a few times... in my whole live living in here i havent seen anything weird.. until today...
If i was hungry.. i prefer to leave the tamales in the kitchen...
I'm an scaredy cat...
Currently Feeling: surprised

Life is major sucking this days...
Last week we have a teacher's reunion, and SURPRISE!! the reunion wasn't about the next party/celebration on Wednesday, or even the next parade... next Thursday... no... it was all due the school not having the money (arguing they dont have too much money since we have only 105 students in the school) to pay us (teachers) the ISR!!!! can you believe that!!!! damnit!! they pay us a shit and now we're going to be paying our own ISR taxes from our own shitty payment check?? like WTF!?? >:0
obviously thats is so many ways, against the laws.. (the bosses are supposed to pay that for the workers... but..)
Of course the head director... told us that if we dont agree with that.. we're more than welcome to leave the school and quit... *haha* such a jerk...
Anyways.. i dont want to talk about this issue anymore for a while.. is making me upset...
So... i guess all the troubles around me are making me got depressed or so... today a few minutes ago, got the weird feeling that the Internet life lately is like a 'Strange World' to me... and i'm like a stranger that dont belongs to nowhere...
I dont have the inspiration to make anything internet related, talking about being designing, changing my domain layout or making some pixel art... i just feel weird and awful..
I'm just a Stranger in here.. i feel sooo isolated from everyone...
I hate to being all emo..

Getting ready?.... i guess nope :P look at me! it's 11:54 AM and i'm still in here... in front of the computer...
i promise i'm sending this post and i'm taking my shower ;)
The few "entertainment" i'm getting for today is going to watch
Disney's
Home On The Range we have tied our options between Home On the Range and Garfield... but last weekend i read some brief review about Garfield movie and how dissapointing was watching the lazy cat got pretty active.. so it's a bit like he loose some of the "lazyness charm" :P
So.. go ahead for Disney's animated movie :D
I know i have to stay at home early... yesterday i dont did my schedules for next week :P and i know i need to do those for tomorrow.. bleh...
Next week, the school is making a "welcome party" for the students.. not sure if i'm wanting to go anyways.... i'm not in the "mood" for that things right now...
And next Friday we have another "party" this time is the birthday of one of my students from 3rd grade of high school.. he's turning 18 yrs old..
Anyways.. this post is getting long... i must leave and take my bath...

P.S. Anyone saw what the fuck did a "guy" to the leader of the Marathon race?? That was just not fair!!!
The jerk jump from nowhere and almost "attacked" the runner from Brazil.... sadly he lost some precious minutes and now the competitor from Italy is in 1st place :(
Currently Feeling: lazy

Actually i'm really impressed how making somenthing creative is helping me keep my mind busy... and not worrying that much...
I just spend a couple of hours making this random pixel experiment, 100% pixel shaded and done in PSP& and the tablet..

CLICK FOR DEVIANTART FULL VIEW!

The *gif image says i used 16 colors... i'm pretty sure i used less, but when adding the text i used the antialiased option.. so that could be the reason...